The last couple of weeks have been really rough for me. I have been in a whirlwind trying to come up with ways to fund this adoption. Trying to make things to sale. Plus trying to keep up the kids school work and activities. I was overwhelmed and stressed to the max. Everytime I turned around something was going wrong and messing up. I was becoming so frustrated and discouraged.
And then the Lord made me stop and realize there is NOTHING I can do to make this adoption happen. NOTHING. No amount of begging, pleading, sewing, selling. NOTHING. This is all in his hands.
On one hand I have known this from the beginning. We don't have the resources to make this happen. I knew that from the start. I trusted in the Lord to bring our child home. I just wasn't trusting in his timing. I thought I would just help him along the way. I am a planner, I thought if I could just make a plan as to how to raise the funds it would work. NOT. Instead all I accomplished was making myself crazy.
So I am going to sit back and fully trust in the Lord. I am going to wait for his timing though it may not be my own.
Ps 27:14 Wait for the LORD; Be strong, and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the LORD.
Ps 33:20 Our soul waits for the LORD; He is our help and our shield.
Isa 40:31 Yet those who wait for the LORD will gain new strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles, They will run and not get tired, They will walk and not become weary.
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